Saturday, June 10, 2006
fear factor
I am not a brave person. I don't go out of my way to look for adventure or a challenge, as much as possible I want things the way they are, I hate changes...but it is inevitable, I know.
I've been working in my new office for almost two months now, I'm working a government office. My new boss, he's the governor of some province in Luzon. He's a very scary person not because he's ugly or anything but because he commands respect, he shows who is master when he's around. A lot of people are scared of him, myself included. He talks very loudly, he curses, he has a very, very short temper, he wants everything done in an instant, which we all know is impossible. He doesn't listen to explanations, he's always right, he looks for flaws in everything. Just his mere presence make anyone in the office shiver with fear, sometimes I want to run home and not comeback in the office but I can't. Last Wednesday, he was shouting and cursing, he's usual, but he did something else that shocked and rocked me to my core, he hit his photographer... four times! Papers were flying up in the air, he threw it all because he couldn't find the picture of his son. His son! Not something related to goverment business, not something that could possibly make the world a better place but a picture of his son! When his photographer picked up the papers from the ground he took the papers from him and hit him with it while cursing him! He did it four times.
All of my bad experiences from the private companies that I've worked for before are nothing compared to what I've seen and heard here. I've heard of bosses screaming ang cursing before but none of them hit their employees. I don't even know how to even begin to describe him.
Everytime I'm in the office I feel like I'm waiting for a heart attack to happen. I can't breath and move when he's around. I fucking fear the guy but I can't leave, I want to conquer my fear. It sounds stupid, I know but I want to see his other side. I want to know if he has a good side.
Again, I am not a brave person, I don't go out of my way to look for challenges but when I find myself in the middle of it, I tend to stand my ground. I won't leave just yet...
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3 comments:
good for you dancing_nancy!
just stand your ground and you'd be fine.
**hugs**
i like what you've done with the place.
sorry i've not been around i was at the world cup
be reading
i should get my book next week i hope you get yours soon.
i'm proud of you for taking charge and resigning. i went thru a similar circumstance where my boss, a woman, verbally harassed me, wouldn't give me the day off to go to my father's funeral, yelled and put me down in front of others, and many more things that I can't mention. i ended up resigning too, and took the company to court. it is still tied up, i don't want the money, just to be recognized that she can't do this to people and get away with it.
somehow knowing that you're not alone makes it a little easier to cope with whatever problem we're having. thank you sfacfan for sharing this with me.
although i don't think i could take him, my boss, to court because he's a very "powerful" politician complete with private army and all, at least that's what my sources are saying.
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