The Voice

I never thought I'd get hooked on The Voice, I have been loyally following it week after week since Cody Belew auditioned. I really like him. He's not shy and he brings smile on my face every time he performs. He kinda look like Brandon Flowers in my eye and I really like The Killers so i guess that's the connection, methinks. I like what I like.

I did not watch seasons 1 and 2 because I never liked anyone then. This time though I'd be watching as long as Cody's there.

*i also like nicholas david, go team cee lo!*

What is it?

This is a white melon gourd better known as kundol here in Manila. It was given to me this morning by my Chinese neighbor. They harvested a dozen of those, at least, this morning. I couldn't be any happier, it's my first time to hold a kundol in my hand, it has tiny pin like texture all around, it got me by surprise. The house-help didn't seem to mind so I thought it was smooth but when I held it I felt like I was holding hundreds of pins and needles literally!

This might keep me busy the whole day, I will cook this and make dessert out of it. I hope I get this right, I used to eat sweetened kundol when I was a kid. Every January each year a bunch of folks from Bulacan would give me a bowl of sweetened kundol, it was chewy, crunchy and juicy all at the same time. The secret was in the lime they used to say.

*i better start peeling*

The Return of the King

Need I say more?

*apologies to LOTR for borrowing the title*

I'm Home!

Coming Out

I know I have been very shady about my real condition and part of the reason I guess is because I was not ready to accept my situation... I have hopes that certain miracles will happen to me and I will be healed ...miraculously, of course. It didn't happen.

I have endometriosis, if you google it, like I did, it will tell you that it is a gynecological medical condition and has various of symptoms. It varies from person to person. I can only tell you what I've gone through.

For years, wait, that can't be right... as far as I can remember I've always had painful menstruation, I've had cramps, back pain, acid reflux and migraines three to four days a month. It was my normal. But last March of this year the pain was so severe not even my friend Mefenamic Acid was able to help alleviate the pain so I went to the doctor. I was told to get an ultrasound so I did and the result was I have endometriosis scattered in my guts and cysts on both of my ovaries. I was advised to go under the knife immediately because the cyst on my left ovary was quite big... 4.8 cm big. It might rupture.

Should be easy to decide on, right?  But no, I waited until October to get the much needed operation because of one petty reason. The thing is at the time it wasn't so petty. I didn;t want to get the operation because of my work. I was training somebody at the time and I didn't want to leave the person, of course I can always turn him over to one of my co-workers but I didn't want to burden her... I could probably tell you a hundred reasons right now but in hindsight it was all bullocks. Work should never come ahead of health. At the end of the day family will take care of you, not your friends or co-workers. I really get it now.

I prayed to God for a miracle, I prayed hard to keep me from the operation. He let me down, that's what I thought for quite awhile, maybe it wasn't meant to be I told myself. But really I should be thanking Him, sure the operation my painful but also I was able to take a break from the office for 60 days. 60 whole days with my family. A lot of holidays spent together even if we're just sitting around and watching TV.

God is keeping me on track, he wanted me to see what's important but it's hidden at first, I'm glad I found it.

Missed Opportunity

I can't believe I missed The Fray concert last Saturday! I was waiting to feel better but the pain just won't go away... I'm always complaining. I know. It's just that I can't help it. It seems like everything I do now depends on how I feel physically.

*please go away pain*

 

It's Back...

And I thought the pain is over... I was never told by my doctor that I'd feel unbelievable pain on my first period after the surgery. This is even worst before the operation! I can't help but think that the endo might be back...

I was told to take pills for six months to suppress my period since to be taken on the first day so that's what I did. I was told that the endometriosis could re-occur as long as I have menstruation. So the best way to prevent the endos from coming back pills are necessary.

*i don't know what to do... i can't lie down, i can't sit and i can't stand too long... arrgh!*

Breaking from Breaking Bad

I couldn't get myself to watch episode 8 of season 5, I just can't... it's like saying goodbye to friends, I just can't do it. Breaking Bad kept me company this whole time. I started to watch season 1 two weeks ago only stopping if I start to feel pain and had to lie down or something. And now I'm on my last episode of season 5. I probably won't watch it until I get a copy of the the second half's final season.

I've never watched anything like it... it's so addicting (pun intended)! I never thought cooking meth involved that much knowledge in chemistry but then again I never paid much attention to illegal drugs before, heck, I've never smoked weed or tasted drug of any kind up until now. But this meth business is really intriguing... Bryan Cranston must be that good, I'm so scared of him now! I watched Larry Crowne yesterday and he played Julia Robert's asshole of a husband... he's messing with my head... I just realized this now... after watching every episode I had to think of Bryan as Hal from Malcolm in the Middle to make everything right again in my head again.

Then there's Aaron Paul, I didn't know him before, he didn't look familiar, I don't remember him from any other show... but boy, oh boy! he's good. I tend to "look after" him after every time. So glad Jesse's quitting the meth business... stay away from Mr White, Jesse! Listen to Mike... he's dead but you don't know it yet... shhh... Mr White killed him. Oddly enough, I like Skinny Pete and Badger... they're loyal to Jesse. That's enough reason to love them.

Next year seems so far away. Sigh.

*i think breaking from breaking bad will do me good... i better be watching 'the regular show' and 'adventure time' instead*

Road to Recovery Part III

It's driving me nuts! Staying home, that is. I'm feeling much, much better now so I'm itching to work again. I even dream of my workplace every night. Even my other dreams are scarily vivid, I dream of my father every night and  I also dream of my grandmother. I miss them both very much, I appreciate the dreams but... every night? It's creepy!