I Can't Complain

2014 has been a good to me just like the past few years, God gives me enough and enough is all I need. I am content.
He gives me little miracles each day and for that I am forever grateful. I try every day to be and do good and I feel like everyday I fail a little, sometimes I fail big time but God has been good to us, I can not complain.
Just thankful.

Only Lovers Left Alive

Why didn't I watch this movie any sooner? I kept putting it off when all I wanted was to watch it the  moment I knew it existed.

It's a villainless, actionless, delightful movie. Vampires from the old world living in the 21st century, they don't kill people to live, they get their blood from hospitals. They're very cautious because blood these days could be contaminated. Adam (Tom Hiddleston) and Eve (Tilda Swinton) are husband and wife but they live apart. He lives in Detroit and she lives in Tangier, though they are apart the connection is always there. I didn't get why they had to live away from each other. Eve uses her Apple (iPhone) to communicate with Adam and Adam makes use of old equipment and connects them together to talk to Eve. He has electricity using his Tesla-like skills. He made an underground power supply. I guess one can do that if you have plenty of time in your hands.


They talk about the arts, vintage guitars and Physics. I have no better way to describe the film but delightful and funny. The best vampire love story I've seen. Enough of that, this is not a movie review, I can not write a movie review even if I wanted to.

The Woodstock of Tennis!

Never in a million years did I dream that I'll have chance to see my favorite tennis players in real life but it happened. For real! I don't know if I'll be calling it a dream come true because I never dreamed that I'd see them all playing in a court simply because I live in a third world country, why would they come here. So instead I'd be calling it a blessing from above.  :)

My friend and I had a 3-day pass starting from November 28 to November 30. Now, where do I start? It all happened so fast. The last thing I remember was I was working and then I got a message from Lynette, my friend, that she has tickets for the both of us to watch the IPTL tour and then I took a bath, oh, I think I should mention that I was working from home that day, then off I went to MOA arena. We got the surprise of our lives when we realized that we were holding VIP tickets! How I got the ticket was another story that deserves a separate blog entry. But like I said, it was a blessing from above. Good thing I had pictures, crappy pictures taken from my phone I might add, but nevertheless proof that I was there and watched the whole thing.

I don't normally like to have my picture taken in front of people but I needed proof that it was not a dream.

My friend and I thought that we'd pass out, we were screaming and hyperventilating. We'd look at each other quietly and then scream again. I even forgot how to count scores! I was so excited. Had Rafael Nadal and Roger Federer been there my bucket list would've been complete. It's a good thing Jo-Wilfried Tsonga kept us "company", he's really, really handsome. I was looking at him all the time.

Gael Monfils kept us entertained, he was funny and a real good dancer, it looked like he was truly enjoying the exhibit, must have been refreshing to just play tennis and not worry about your world ranking.

I wish I could say something great about Andy Murray but watching him play was very frustrating and disappointing. I mean he was the main man of Manila Mavericks but he just couldn't win. He  kept on losing. We were shouting our lungs out, praying silently he'd win, when a ball hit someone to my right that made us shut up for a while. It could've been us? And then we were picking on Andy again. I shouted "Andy, win this and I'll be your fan forever!" That's how sure I was he'd lose but then he found his rhythm and won on the last day, on the last game.

What did I do? Oh my gosh!

I Saw Jason Mraz!

For years I've been trying to watch Jason Mraz in concert, he's been here in Manila thrice and each time I failed...because of work. I had a very demanding job to say the least. I spent six years of my life in a company that worshipped money. Money before family. Work life balance is a strange word to them, I mean they acknowledge it but they don't...anyway, back to Jason, needless to say, I changed company so I was able to watch him live, with my daughter. We're both fans and I'm so glad I took her with me.

Jason was very funny and very sincere. I can tell that he truly practices what he preaches. He does his share to save the environment and uses his popularity to spread the word. He's very generous too, I've been to a lot of concerts and all of those concerts seemed too short. Jason's was a different story, he had two sets and if I remember it right I think he sang more that 14 songs! He sang almost all of the songs that I love and meant something to me. I truly enjoyed the Song for a Friend and Geek in the Pink mash up.

It was a school night but I took my daughter anyway because I know that someday when I'm old and grey we'll look back and find that the night we spent with Mr A to Z will be one of the best nights of our lives...November 27, 2014.

Of Hearts and Heartbreaks

Seems like my life this past few months are made up of little heartbreaks. I get cracked a little each day, it's a miracle I'm still in one piece. Oh yes, I have a lot of those I just don't choose to write about it because I don't want them included in my life, I want to forget about them, only those that I care a lot about deserves to be included in my blog, in my life.


I'm not the best person but I try to be. I try to be a good person. I'm not the best mother in the world, I have shortcomings, I'm not always there when my kids need me, I admit it. But I try to make it up. I am flawed, not perfect, I want to be the best mother for them but I can only do so much.


My son failed 3 subjects, I went to his school yesterday to claim his report card. I asked if he had problems, with his teacher, classmates...he said no. I think he just gave up. And he won't talk about it. I'm trying not to lose my patience but I think I'm about to give up too. He is so like me, not much of a talker. It's so frustrating.


Anyway, my son made a cutout heart for me when he was around five years old. Thought I post it here. This was back when we used to talked endlessly about dinosaurs and tigers.

Make it easy

I've got to get this out of my chest, I'm hormonal right now so I'll check back next week to see if what I'm feeling now has legs.


First, I feel like I will be left all alone sooner than I expected. Okay, let me explain, I feel like my friend is trying hard to keep me in his life but... Here's the deal, we've been friends longer than anyone in the office so I feel like he shouldn't struggle if he had to choose between me and other people. It should be easy an enough decision. But that is not happening, he's struggling. It's hard work for him, when it shouldn't be, at least in my mind. Unless, he doesn't me around anymore.


And that is why I am hurt.


I might have 3 choices here:

a) Avoid him and let him be with his new friend.

b) Tell him to make a choice already so I won't have to expect. 

c) Just ignore what's happening (which i can't)


Decision, decision.

Tired

This has been an exhausting week. I can't even begin when and where to start. Some day, maybe.

Are We Friends?

You know I'm loyal to you. You know that because I told you so. Now, the question is, are you loyal to me? I have this nagging feeling that you're playing me. I tried to brush it aside, I tried burying that thought but it never goes away. It keeps coming back.  

It's time to know.

Lazy Chair

This should be added to my collection of men... sitting.

Back To You

Okay, this deserves to be posted.

When I saw him smoking a cigarette (with Linda!!!) last week I swear I didn't love him anymore. Ha ha! So gradeschool, I know. 

I'm posting this now so I guess it goes without saying that he's forgiven and I love him again.